Fuck , why I become EMO at night .

Damn . i become emo when it come to at night . did anyone has this at night too ? ^^ nah . i don't really care . :/
 i like this guy , and than i don't talk to him when i knew that he said BAD things about me . pathetic right ? love someone that doesn't love you and you KNEW IT .. hah . i suddenly wanted to cry that why he does not love me . i know i'm not really pretty but .. why ?  and the worst thing is that i can't hate him for saying bad things about me .. :/ and he date my friend last december holiday and everyone know it . I'm THE ONLY ONE WHO DON'T KNOW . hahaha  , I know i don't have the rights  to get angry but i'm really upset about this . STOP IT PLEASE . why everytime i won't learnt my lesson ? i knew that love make me cries but why i still go touch " LOVE " ?? Omg .. . i'm soo...